Confessions: Autobiographical Essays of
Hazat Inayat Khan
The Early Years
'Whatsoever road I took, it joined the street which
leads to Thee.'--The Dabistan.
I was born in Baroda, India, in the year 1882, when
a great religious reform began, not only in India itself, but all the
world over, and which was the first source of our present-day
awakening. I am sure it was the planetary influence which existed at
that time that has kept me busied all my life in seeking the divine
truth, which is as the garment of God's glory.
Music and mysticism were my heritage from both my
paternal and maternal ancestors, among whom were numbered Maulabakhsh,
whom people called the Beethoven of India and whose portrait is in the
Victoria and Albert Museum at South Kensington, and Jumma Shah, the
great seer of Panjab. I have ever felt much embarrassed when I was
compared with these masters, and this humility brought the old saying
to my mind, 'Have pride in thine own merits rather than in those of thy
ancestors.'
'I also came out as a brook from a river; and as a
conduit into a garden.'--Ecclesiastics.
My curiosity about the hidden secrets of nature was
early aroused, and I made frequent inquiries concerning the mysteries
of religion, such as, Where does God live? How old is God? Why should
we pray to Him? And why should we fear Him? Why should people die? And
where do they go after death? If God has created all, who was the
creator of God?
My parents, Rahemat Khan and Khatija Bibi, would
patiently answer me in the simplest and most plausible manner possible,
but I would prolong the argument until they were wearied. Then I would
ponder upon the same questions.
'Mankind's great enemy is idleness. There is no
friend like energy, and if you cultivate that you will never fail.
'--BHARTRIHARI.
I was sent to school when quite young, but I fear
that I was more inclined to play than to study. I preferred punishment
to paying attention to those subjects in which I had no interest. I
enjoyed religion, poetry, morals, logic, and music more than all other
learning, and I took music as a special subject at the Academy of
Baroda and repeatedly won the first prize there.
I had so much curiosity about strangers,
fortune-tellers, fakirs, dervishes, spiritualists, and mystics, that I
would very often absent myself from my meals to seek them out. My taste
for music, poetry, and philosophy increased daily, and I loved my
grandfather's company more than a game with boys of my own age. In
silent fascination I observed his every movement and listened to his
musical interpretations, his methods of study, his discussions and his
conversation. My attempts at writing poetry without any training in the
art of meter and form induced my parents to place me under the
tutorship of Kavi Ratnakar, the great Hindustani poet.
I also began to compose, and sang a song of prayer
to Ganesh in Sanskrit before His Highness Sayajirao Gaikwar, Maharaja
of Baroda, who rewarded my song with a valuable necklace and a
scholarship. This encouraged me to advance further in music under the
guidance of Maulabakhsh, who inspired me with music from kindred soul
to soul.
'He was born the Lord of what is, Who by His majesty
is the one King of the moving world that breathes and closes its eyes.'
My kinsfolk were Muslim, and I grew up devoted to
the Holy Prophet and loyal to Islam, and never missed one prayer of the
five which are the daily portion of the faithful.
One evening in the summer time I was kneeling,
offering my Nimaz (prayers) to Allah the Great, when the thought smote
me that although I had been praying so long with all trust, devotion,
and humility, no revelation had been vouchsafed to me, and that it was
therefore not wise to worship Him, that One whom I had neither seen nor
fathomed. I went to my grandfather and told him I would not offer any
more prayers to Allah until I had both beheld and gauged Him. 'There is
no sense in following a belief and doing as one's ancestors did before
one, without knowing the true reason,' I said.
Instead of being vexed Mauhbakhsh was pleased with
my inquisitiveness, and after a little silence he answered me by
quoting a sura of the Qur'an, 'We will show them our signs in the world
and in themselves, that the truth may be manifested to them.' And then
he soothed my impatience and explained, saying, 'The signs of God are
seen in the world, and the world is seen in thyself.'
These words entered so deeply into my spirit, that
from this time every moment of my life has been occupied with the
thought of the divine immanence; and my eyes were thus opened, as the
eyes of the young man by Elijah, to see the symbols of God in all the
aspects of nature, and also in that nature which is reflected within
myself. This sudden illumination made everything appear as clear to me
as in a crystal bowl or a translucent jewel. Thenceforth I devoted
myself to the absorption and attainment of truth, the immortal and
perfected Grace.
My Study of Religions
'Wisdom which is the worker of all things taught me,
for in her is an understanding spirit.'--Solomon.
I First studied comparative religions with an open
mind; not in a critical spirit but as an admirer and a lover of truth
in all its guises. I read the lives of the founders, prophets, and
seers with as much reverence as their most devout adherents. This
brought me the bliss of realization of the one truth which all
religions contain, as different vessels may yet hold the same wine. It
was the conception of truth in all its manifold forms and expressions,
ever borne by different messengers, who most wondrously, by their very
diversity of garb, civilization, nationality, and age, revealed the one
Source of the inspiration. To me their sole difference was caused by
the laws of space and time.
It was therefore natural for the messengers of truth
to convey their message in the language of the land wherein they were
born, and in the style suited to the life of their period. For each one
was needed in his place and adapted to his era, and the difference
between them existed only in those principles and rituals which were
given to the people of that time and harmonized with their standard of
intelligence and evolution: even as a physician has to change his
prescriptions according to the patient's state of improvement before he
can bring about the cure; or as in school, at each term and in every
year, a new course of study is taught through different grades.
Man, not generally understanding this fact and its
motive, and owing to the blind dogmatic faith which obsesses him, has
always clung to the originator and ignored the new prophet. Such was
the common lot of Moses, Jesus, and Mohammed, and of all the Masters
and Shining Ones who have revealed in the sorrows they had to bear
during their own lives the struggle between the cross and the truth,
which is expressed by the symbol of the cross. The hurt from which the
prophets have ever suffered lay in the rebellion of the ignorant, who
were unable to realize the truth hidden in their teachings, and thus
mocked and scoffed at them. But all the true messengers justly asserted
the truth in a way to suit the period wherein they brought their
message.
'Whosoever in Love's city enters finds but room for
One, and but in Oneness union.'--Jami.
The masters of the Hindus, such as Shiva, Vishnu,
Rama, and Krishna, claimed each in his turn to be a reincarnation of
one another, or in other words an incarnation of Brahma, the supreme
God, because the people would not have listened to them without this
proclamation. In this way the materialists who never move an inch
without definite reason and logic were trained by the Buddha Gautama,
who explained the great truth to them in the simple words of their own
language.
Zoroaster imparted the law of action and
nature-worship, the mystical import of burnt offerings and fire, the
symbol of love, light, and purity, and adapted these to the
intellectual standard of his followers. King Solomon revealed the truth
from his throne when his simple subjects adored him as God, and Abraham
preached when devotion was idolized, and was willing even to sacrifice
his own son to the divine Will.
When the world was awakened to the loveliness of
music, David sang forth the same truth in his most melodious voice, and
when beauty reigned in her fair dominance, Joseph appeared in all his
youth and charm. Moses came when men where athirst for miracles. And in
the age of hereditary power, Christ, as the Son of God, stayed the
world from ignorance and error, and sowed the seed of spiritual
freedom; this in time grew and brought forth the epoch of democracy,
wherein Mohammed carried the last message of the religious republic,
Islam, and claimed to be Abda, the servant, and the Rasul of God.
This implies that each one of these, though still
the bearer of the mission, the herald of God's decree, was also a new
step in human evolution, at those times when the world was ripe enough
and ready to receive the message, not from a superior claimant, but
from one among the Shining Hosts.
Mohammed's saying, 'None but God exists', explained
the essence of all previous messages most clearly. The lesson of
Mohammed, once learned, left no need for the continuance of prophetic
teaching, because it proved that each being bears the divine source
thereof within himself, and that the evolution of man has now prepared
him for the kingdom which is within.
Indeed, all the prophets from Adam to Mohammed, who
was the fulfillment of God's tidings, have revealed to us the numerous
aspects which the same truth can bear, or, in other words, truth has
manifested itself in various names and different forms to attain its
glorious end. But the manifold aspects of truth have not been
recognized in man's ignorance, and thus all the racial and religious
prejudices among creeds and castes, as well as the wars and differences
between nations, have arisen from his narrowness and slowness of
perception. Each one called the other heathen or pagan, Kafir or
Mlench, upholding his Master as the only true initiate, as though the
Master were his own personal property. Yet the Masters were born not
for one family or one nation or race, but verily for all mankind. Truly
only followers and zealots of different religions fall away from the
truth, for they are blinded by patriotism and have raised pedantic
prejudices against the teachings and spirits of those pure Masters, who
had neither any concern for their religion nor for their own name and
personal appearance but lived only in the cause of truth.
This error is due entirely to those disciples who
swear by the mortal names of the Masters and recognize their
personalities alone, instead of accepting them all as one boundless
embodiment of truth. The Masters have never desired their human bodies
to be adored as saviors; this is merely an exaggeration and the
mistaken conception of their followers. Their bodies were but as the
vessels of truth, and the truth they brought to us is the only savior,
then, now, and forever. As the Bible declares, 'Ye shall know the
truth, and the truth shall make you free.' Truth, the real savior and
messiah, is untouched by death and disease; it is everlasting,
omnipresent, and omnipotent. Truth, indeed, was Adam, Moses, and
Christ, and the very truth was Mohammed.
Yet, although every religion comprises a large
number of followers, each person has his own religion peculiar to
himself. He is sometimes unaware of this fact and attaches himself most
enthusiastically to the religion of his race and nation.
If he only knew the true religion which God has
intended for him, all his struggles would be at an end. Those who judge
a religion by its principles are mistaken, for good or bad as well as
right and wrong depend on one's own point of view, and are therefore
sometimes liable to mental inversion. Those who fight for their
religion on the authority of history are fanatics, for they must know
that history is man- and not God-made, and that many truths are lost in
the lapse of time, while many exaggerations attain favor or disfavor
through the biased personal opinions of the historians. He who adheres
to his beliefs and disbeliefs without reason is blinded with bigotry.
Still, were a Buddhist to come to me saying, 'Our
Lord Buddha was the only true teacher, I would answer, 'Verily!' And if
a Hindu cried to me that Krishna is the ideal master, I would say, 'You
speak rightly'. And if a Christian should declare that Christ is the
highest of all, I would reply, 'Undoubtedly'. For it is the nature of
man to consider as best that which he can idealize best. But if anyone
came to me saying, 'I cannot believe in all this talk for I can only
recognize the same truth within each one of these', I would say, 'You,
my friend, are the one who really knows, for you have understood and
unveiled the real secret of God's nature.'
Rumi says, 'The Sufis take the meat, leaving the
bones for others to fight over.'
I Start on My Indian Tour
'The world shall live in me, not I in it.'--Akhlak-e
Jalali.
Glory be to God that this universal belief saved me
from falling into the crooked paths of bigotry and prejudice, on which
so many children of God pass the night of life like a flock of ignorant
sheep. They walk in herds unto the very gates of death, unaware of
their Why and Whither, while even the voice of immortality cannot
recall them, and they are lost unto the ages!
When Maulabakhsh, my grandfather, died I was in deep
despair. I grieved for a very long time over the loss of my musical
guide and inspiration, realizing the uncertainty of this life, and that
my own existence was only worth enduring if I could be of some use to
the world. I appreciated the great service Maulabakhsh had rendered to
India by giving its music a feasible system of notation, and wondered
how I could carry on his work.
At one period music in India was regarded not only
as a medium for perfecting humanity, but also as a spiritual
manifestation. My grandfather, with his intense feeling for both his
art and his people, believed that music could only be raised from its
present degeneration by using it as a teacher of morals and a prophet
of the Lord's glory.
Once, in my utter despair at my futility in
comparison with him, I broke down completely, crying, 'Allah! If our
people had lost only their wealth and power it would not have been so
grievous to bear, since these temporal things are always changing hands
in the mazes of Maya. But the inheritance of our race, the music of the
Divine, is also leaving us through our own negligence, and that is a
loss my heart cannot sustain!'
I invoked the name of Sharda, the goddess of music,
and prayed her to protect her sacred art.
And thus it came about that I left my home with the
view of creating a universal system of music. I started out on this
mission when I was eighteen years old, and was welcomed at the courts
of Rajas and Maharajas who greatly encouraged and rewarded me for my
efforts. From all the leading cities of India I received addresses and
medals in recognition and appreciation of my music, and thus increased
the number of my friends, pupils, and sympathizers throughout India.
'He who though dressed in fine apparel exercises
tranquillity, is quiet, subdued, restrained, chaste, and has ceased to
find fault with others, he indeed is a Brahman, an ascetic, a friar.'
Dhammapada
The Nizam of Hyderabad, Mir Mahebub Ali Khan, a
great mystic ruler of India and a devotee of music and poetry, showed
me special favor. Several times my playing moved the Nizam to tears;
and when I had done he asked curiously, what mystery lay in my music?
Then, answering him, I explained, 'Your Highness, as
sound is the highest source of manifestation, it is mysterious within
itself, and whosoever has the knowledge of sound, he indeed knows the
secret of the universe. My music is my thought, and my thought is my
emotion; the deeper I dive into the ocean of feeling, the more
beautiful are the pearls I bring forth in the form of melodies. Thus my
music creates feeling within me even before others feel it. My music is
my religion; therefore worldly success can never be a proper price for
it, and my sole object in music is to achieve perfection.'
This explanation, together with my playing, charmed
the Nizam so much that he presented me with a purse full of golden
coins, and placing his own precious emerald ring upon my finger named
me 'Tansen', after the great Indian singer of the past. This incident
brought me gifts and titles from all parts of India. But honors for
myself did not really satisfy me. How could I be content with my own
exalted position when my fellow musicians were looked upon with
contempt by conservative India?
Naturally I realized that it was due partly to the
musicians themselves, who are as a rule illiterate and who look to the
princes and potentates for support, feeding their false pride with
flattery and subservience, and thus losing the independence and
inspiration of their art. Then again, the masses are untrained in the
subject, while the educated classes are far too busy adopting Western
ideas and sacrificing literature, philosophy, and music to polo,
cricket, and tennis. I met many of the latter, who made it a boast that
they knew nothing about the music of their own country, furnishing
their homes with blaring gramophones and hiding their sitars away in
disgrace.
'O Thou whose kingdom passes not away, pity him
whose kingdom is passing away'--Dying words of Caliph Vathek.
To my amazement and horror, all the medals and
decorations which I had gathered as emblems of my professional success,
and which were a source of pride to me, gained as they were by so much
endeavor, enthusiasm, and the labor of many years spent in constant
wanderings from place to place, were in a single instant snatched away
from me for ever. In a moment of abstraction they were left in a car,
which could not be traced despite all my efforts. But in place of the
disappointment which at first oppressed me, a revelation from God
touched the hidden chords of my mind and opened my eyes to the truth.
I said to myself, 'It matters not how much time you
have spent to gain that which never belonged to you but which you
called your own; today you understand it is yours no longer. And it is
the same with all you possess in life, your property, friends,
relations; even your own body and mind. All that you call 'my', not
being your true property, will leave you, and only that which you name
"I", which is absolutely disconnected with all that is called "my",
will remain. Why not go forth and strive for that which is worth
gaining in life? Why not thus attain to true glory, instead of wasting
your valuable opportunities in vain greed for wealth, fame, reputation,
and those worldly honors which are here today and forgotten tomorrow?'
I knelt down and thanked God for the loss of my
medals, crying, 'Let all be lost from my imperfect vision but thy true
Self, Ya Allah!'
I then set forth in pursuit of philosophy, visiting
every mystic I could on my journeys to different Indian cities. I
traveled through jungles, across mountains, and along river banks in
search of mystics and hermits, playing and singing before them until
they also sought my society.
It was in Nepal, during the pilgrimage of
Pashpathinath, that I met a Muni among several sages. He was a Mahatma
of the Himalayas and lived in a mountain cave, and untouched by earthly
contact, ambitions, and environments, he seemed to be the happiest man
in the world. After I had entertained him with my music he, without
seeming to notice, revealed to me the mysticism of sound, and unveiled
before my sight the inner mystery of music. I thereafter met other
mystics, with whom I discoursed on different subjects, and whose
blessings I obtained through my art.
My Interest in Sufism
'Well-makers lead the water; archers bend the bow;
carpenters hew a log of wood; wise people fashion themselves.'
--DHAMMAPADA.
At Ajmer I visited the tomb of Khwaja Moin-ud-Din
Chishti, the most celebrated Sufi saint of India. The atmosphere of his
last resting place was in itself a phenomenon; a sense of calm and
peace pervaded it, and among all that throng of pilgrims I yet felt as
if I were the only one present. At nightfall I went home and said
Tahajud, the midnight prayer.
And at the end of my prayers there came to me a
voice, as though in answer to my invocations. It was the voice of a
fakir calling the people to prayer before sunrise, and he sang, 'Awake,
O man, from thy fast sleep! Thou knowest not that death watcheth thee
every moment. Thou canst not imagine how great a load thou hast
gathered to carry on thy shoulders, and how long the journey yet is for
thee to accomplish. Up! up! the night is passed and the sun will soon
arise!'
The unearthly quiet of the hour and the solemnity of
the song moved me to tears. Sitting on my rug with my rosary in my
hand, I reflected that all the proficiency and reputation which I had
achieved were utterly profitless in regard to my Najat or salvation. I
recognized that the world was neither a stage set up for our amusement
nor a bazaar to satisfy our vanity and hunger, but a school wherein to
learn a hard lesson. I then chose quite a different path to that which
I had followed until then; in other words I turned over a new page in
my life.
The morning broke and the birds began their hymn of
praise to God. I heard men and women pass by below, some going to the
mosque, others to the temples, and the general masses to the toil that
yields their daily bread. Then I too fared forth and, lost in thought,
not knowing my destination, made my way towards the jungle, with an
inner yearning to be apart from the world and give an outlet to the
thoughts and emotions with which my mind was so occupied.
Thus I arrived at a cemetery where a group of
dervishes sat on the green grass, chattering together. They were all
poorly clad, some without shoes and others without coats; one had a
shirt with only one sleeve and another lacked them both. One wore a
robe with a thousand patches and the next a hat without a crown. This
strange group attracted my attention and I sat there for some time,
noticing all that was going on yet reigning to be utterly indifferent.
Presently their Pir-o-Murshid or Master came towards
them, even more scantily dressed than they, and with a group of
dervishes circling round him as he approached. Two of the latter led
the odd procession, and with each step they cried out loudly, 'Hash bar
dum, nazur bar kadum, khilwat dar anjuman!'--Be conscious of your
breath and watch every step you take, and thus experience solitude in
the crowd!
When the Murshid arrived at the assembly of his
disciples each one greeted the other, saying, 'Ishq Allah, Ma'bud
Allah!'--God is love and God is the Beloved! It was this very greeting
which later unveiled for me the Bible words that God is love, and also
the verse of the Arabian poet Abulallah, who says:
Church, a Temple, or a Ka'ba
stone, Qur'an or Bible, or a martyr's
bone, All these and more my heart can
tolerate Since my religion is of love alone.
The solemnity of the sacred words they uttered found
their echo in my soul, and thereupon I watched their ceremonial with
still greater attention. Naturally at first sight their dire poverty
was puzzling, but then I had learned before I saw them how the holy
Prophet had always prayed to Allah to sustain him in his life among the
Mesquin or dervishes, who voluntarily choose this humble way of living.
The queer patches on their garments reminded me of the words of Hafiz,
'Do not befool thyself by short sleeves full of patches, for most
powerful arms are hidden under them.' The dervishes first sat lost in
contemplation, reciting charms one after the other, and then they began
their music. I forgot all my silence and technique while listening to
their simple melodies, as they sang to the accompaniment of sitar and
dholok the deathless words of the Sufi Masters such as Rumi, Jami,
Hafiz, and Shams-e-Tabrez.
The rhapsody which their ecstasies conjured up
seemed to me so strong and vital that the very leaves of the trees
seemed to hang spellbound and motionless. Although their emotions
manifested themselves in varying forms, they were regarded with silent
reverence by all that strange company. Each one of them revealed a
peculiar mood of ecstasy; some expressed it in tears and others in
sighs, some in dances and yet others in the calm of meditation.
Although I did not enjoy the music as much as they, still it impressed
me so deeply that I felt as if I were lost in a trance of harmony and
happiness.
But the most amazing part of the proceedings came
when the assembly was about to disperse. For one of the dervishes arose
and, while announcing Bhundara or dinner, addressed them in the
following terms, 'O Kings of Kings! O Emperors of Emperors!' This
amused me greatly at the time, while I regarded their outward
appearance. My first thought made them merely kings of imagination,
without throne or crown, treasury, courtiers, or dominions--those
natural possessions and temporal powers of kingship.
But the more I brooded upon the matter, the more I
questioned whether environment or imagination made a king. The answer
came at last: the king is never conscious of his kingship and all its
attributes of luxury and might, unless his imagination is reflected in
them and thus proves his true sovereignty. For instance, if a baby were
crowned and seated upon a throne he would never comprehend his high
position until his mind evolved sufficiently to realize his
surroundings. This shows how real our surroundings seem to us, and yet
how dead they are in the absence of imagination. And it also reveals
how fleeting time and the changes of matter make all the kings of the
earth but transitory kings, ruling over transitory kingdoms; this is
because of their dependence upon their environment instead of their
imagination.
But the kingship of the dervish, independent of all
external influences, based purely on his mental perception and
strengthened by the forces of his will, is much truer and at once
unlimited and everlasting. Yet in the materialistic view his kingdom
would appear as nothing, while in the spiritual conception it is an
immortal and exquisite realm of joy.
Verily, they are the possessors of the kingdom of
God, and all His seen and unseen treasure is in their own possession,
since they have lost themselves in Allah and are purified from all
illusive deceptions. 'It is by them that you obtain rain; it is by them
that you receive your subsistence,' says the Qur'an. And Omar Khayyam
said:
Think in this battered
caravanserai, Whose doorways are alternate night and
day,
How Sultan after Sultan with his pomp,
Abode his hour or so, and went his way.
They say the lion and the lizard keep
The courts where Jamsheyd gloried and drank deep;
And Bahram that great hunter, the wild ass
Stamped o'er his head and he lies fast asleep.
Thus I compared our deluded life with the real, and
our artificial with their natural being, as one might compare the false
dawn with the true. I realized our folly in attaching undue weight to
matters wholly unimportant, and how apt we were to laugh at the dreamer
building his lovely castles in the air. I saw how our fleeting affairs
are blown about as chaff is blown in the wind, while the imagination is
difficult to alter. It is possible for the land to turn into water and
for water into land, but the impression of an imagination can never
change.
I felt that we were losing the most precious moments
and opportunities of life for transitory dross and tinsel, at the
sacrifice of all that is enduring and eternal.
When I became familiar with the strange life of the
dervishes I admired the best in them and was able to recognize the
Madzubs, who are the extremists among them. These are so absorbed in
the inner vision that they are absolutely unconscious of the external
needs of life. Sometimes they are both fed and clothed by others; their
neglect of the physical self and their irresponsibility towards the
world make is seem at first sight that they are insane, but at times,
by their miraculous powers over phenomena, they are distinguished as
Madzub. They are understood to be the controllers of the elements, some
with regard to certain portions of land or water, and some even for the
whole world.
Their thought, words, and actions are truly found to
be those of God Almighty. The word is scarcely spoken before the action
is accomplished. Each atom of this universe seems to be awaiting their
command.
I once saw a Madzub in Calcutta, standing in the
street and gesticulating as though he were directing all the traffic.
The passers-by laughed at his insanity. But for all his weird looks he
had most brilliant eyes, shooting forth strong magnetic vibrations,
which attracted me so much that I wondered if he was a Madzub in the
guise of a lunatic; this dissimulation is often practiced by them in
order to escape contact with the world and all life's cares. If they
did not adopt this method it would be harder for them to study the
natural hallucinations of humanity. As Sa'di says, 'Every man on earth
has a craze peculiar to himself.'
The truth of this was shown to me by the way the
Madzub laughed at seeing the people in the street hustling and bustling
along as if their small affairs were the only important things in the
universe. I sent the Madzub word, and asked him if he would care to
come and honor me by his presence, but he sacrificed my request to the
call of the children who suddenly came running and took him away to
play with them. I understood that he preferred the society of children,
the angels on earth, to association with grown-up sinners, who know
nothing but the ego and its ulterior satisfactions. I waited patiently
after this until I next saw him, and sent a message begging him to give
my music a hearing. After that he came, and when he entered the room I
rose from my seat to do him honor and saluted him with both hands. His
only answer was that he did not require this homage, as he received the
same under different attributes and aspects from the whole universe.
In order to be quite sure of his Madzubiat I asked
him whether he was a thief. He smilingly replied, 'Yes', which conveyed
to me that all the good and bad attributes, as well as all names and
forms, were considered by him to be his own, and that he was thus
raised beyond good and evil as well as above the praise and blame of
the world.
Then he sat down and began to discourse and act in
such a manner that all in the room should consider him insane. But I
told him in a whisper that I knew him well, that he could not fool me,
and requested him to favor us with his inspiring words and blessings.
He then began to speak of the journey he had made on the spiritual
path, describing each plane as a fort he had to destroy with guns and
cannon, until he arrived at the home of his Father and embraced his
true spiritual Lord. And he went on to tell how at last the Father was
also dead and he would inherit His kingdom in the end.
It was all related in such quaint language, that
none of those present save myself could understand him, and even I only
did so with a great mental effort.
A Madzub attains perfection through innocence and,
from childhood, learns of the true inner bliss of which we are deprived
by our most deluding knowledge of the outer world. Yet it is not the
path for all to follow; but we can derive the truth of existence from
it and lead a balanced life, as the Salik do among the Sufis.
My Initiation in Sufism
'He breathes not the fragrance of divine mysteries
whose head is not warmed by his heart.'-- Wali
My interest in Sufism made me very friendly with the
dervishes. I leaned to love the sweetness of their nature and the
innate perfume of their manner of using music as the food of the soul.
I began at first to imitate their habits and
methods, and spent a few hours in silence every day. Once in a dream I
saw a great gathering of prophets, saints, and sages, all clad in their
Sufi garments, rejoicing in the Suma or music of the dervishes. I was
absorbed into their blissful state of ecstasy, and when I was aroused I
still felt the exultation my vision had brought to me. After this I
heard continually, waking or sleeping, an unknown voice which cried to
me, 'Allah ho-Akbar'--God is great!
I also had visions of a most haunting and spiritual
face, radiant with light, during my concentration in the silence, which
heightened my interest in mysticism still more, especially as I could
not divine its meaning. I feared to ask for its significance lest
others might laugh at my fancy and ridicule it. At last, when I could
no longer control my impatience, I described my golden vision to a
friend who was also a lover of the mystical, and begged him for an
interpretation.
He answered that the dream was a symbol of my
initiation into the Sufi Order of Chishtia Khandan, and the words I
heard were the crying of Haqq or truth, while the vision was the image
of my spiritual guide and protector. He also advised me to undergo the
initiation of Sufism, although I had always considered myself
undeserving of initiation in that Brotherhood of Purity. But I had a
little courage, hoping I might at least be used as a waste-paper basket
is employed for ton scraps of wisdom, which would quite suffice me. I
visited several murshids with this purpose, but they made no response,
although I had the privilege of studying their various views and
methods of teaching.
Thus I learned to know four true kinds of masters
and four false ones. Among the true I saw first the one who would never
answer the appeal of a seeker until he was fully prepared. The second
kind would not initiate anyone until a long and trying period of
probation had been undergone by the disciple. The third, in order to
keep away undesirable adherents, would make himself appear so utterly
disagreeable that every pupil would run away at the sight of him. And
the fourth would so disguise himself to escape the praise and publicity
of the world that none would believe for a moment that he was truly a
murshid.
Among the false teachers I first met the hypocrite,
who increases the number of his adherents by telling most wonderful
stories and showing them tricks of phenomena. The second apostate was
pious, disguising his infirmities and failings under the cloak of
morality and always busy with worship and prayer. The third was the
money-taking master, who eagerly seized upon every opportunity of
emptying the pockets of his pupils. The fourth was he who was greedy
for the adoration, worship, and servility of his followers.
This experience of different murshids prepared me
for the ideal master, and after six months of continual searching I
chanced to visit an old and revered acquaintance, Maulana Khairulmubin,
to whom I confided my desire to embrace Sufism.
While reflecting on the matter he suddenly received
a telepathic message that his friend, a great murshid, was about to
come to him. He at once arranged a seat of honor, placing cushions upon
it, and walked towards the gate in order to bid him welcome.
After a period of suspense the Pir-o-Murshid
entered, bringing with him a very great sense of light. As all those
present greeted him, bowing down in their humility, it seemed to me all
at once that I had seen him before, but where I could not recall. At
last, after gazing at him earnestly, I remembered that his was the face
which so persistently harmed me during my silence. The proof of this
was manifested as soon as his eyes fell on me. He turned to his host,
saying, 'O Maulana, tell me who this young man may be? He appeals
intensely to my spirit.'
Maulana Khairulmubin answered, 'Your holiness, this
young man is a genius in music, and he desires greatly to submit
himself to your inspiring guidance.'
Then the Master smiled and granted the request,
initiating me into Sufism there and then.
'The day is short, the work abundant, the laborers
inactive, the reward great, and the master of the house urges
on.'--Hebrew saying.
Mohammed Abu Hassim Madani belonged to a
distinguished family of Medina, and was a direct descendant of the Holy
Prophet. My joy in him was so great that it found its expression in
poetry and music. I had at last found my pearl among men, my guide, my
treasure, and beacon of hope. I composed a song and sang it to him, and
this I feel certain has brought me all my success and will aid me in my
future life. And this was my song:
Thou art my salvation and freedom is mine,
I am not, I melt as a pearl in sweet wine!
My heart, soul, and self, yea, all these are thine;
O Lord I have no more to offer!
I drink of the nectar of truth the divine,
As Moses thy word, as Yusuf they shine
who walk in thy ways; and Christ is thy sign:
Thou raisest to life everlasting!
Thou art as Mohammed to them that repine,
My spirit is purged as the gold from a mine!
I only know that my heart beats with thine,
And joys in boundless freedom!
My murshid greatly appreciated this outburst of love
on my part and exclaimed in deep emotion, 'Be thou blessed with divine
light and illuminate the beloved ones of Allah!'
From this time a spiritual attachment between myself
and my murshid was firmly established, and as it grew more and more it
opened up in me the ways of light through my attachment to that inner
radiance, which can never be gained through discussion or argument,
reading, writing, nor mystical exercises.
I visited him at the expense of all my affairs
whenever I felt his call, receiving rays of his ecstasy with bent head,
and listening to all he said without doubt or fear. Thus the firm faith
and confidence I brought to bear upon my meditations prepared me to
absorb the Light of the World Unseen.
I studied the Qur'an, Hadith, and the literature of
the Persian mystics. I cultivated my inner senses, and underwent
periods of clairvoyance, clairaudience, intuition, inspiration,
impressions, dreams, and visions. I also made experiments in
communicating with the living and the dead. I delved into the occult
and psychic sides of mysticism, as well as realizing the benefits of
piety, morality, and Bhakti or devotion. The more I progressed in their
pursuit, the more unlearned I seemed, as there was always more and more
to understand and acquire. Of all that I comprehended and experienced I
valued most that divine wisdom which alone is the essence of all that
is best and attainable, and which leads us on from the finite world
unto infinitudes of bliss.
After receiving instruction in the five different
grades of Sufism, the physical, intellectual, mental, moral, and
spiritual, I went through a course of training in the four schools: the
Chishtia, Naqshibandi, Qadiri, and Suhrwardi. I still recall this
period, under the guidance of so great and merciful a murshid, as the
most beautiful time of my life. In him I saw every rare quality, while
his unassuming nature and his fine modesty could hardly be equaled even
among the highest mystics of the world. He combined within himself the
intense spell of ecstasy and constant flow of inspiration with the very
soul of spiritual independence. Although I had found most wonderful
attributes among the mystics I had met, some in greater and some in
lesser degrees, I had never until then beheld the balance of all that
was good and desirable in one man.
His death was as saintly as his mortal life had
been. Six months before his end he predicted its coming and wound up
all his worldly affairs in order to be freed for his future journey.
'Death is a link which unites friend with Friend unto the Beyond', is a
saying of Mohammed.
He apologized not only to his relatives, friends,
and mureeds, but even to his servants, lest there might be anything
that he had done to their displeasure and hurt. Before the soul
departed from his body he bade farewell to all his people with loving
words. And then, sitting upright and unwavering, he continued Zikr; and
lost in his contemplation of Allah, he, by his own accord, freed his
soul from the imprisonment of this mortal frame forever.
I can never forget the words he spoke while he
placed his hands upon my head in blessing, 'Fare forth into the world,
my child, and harmonize the East and the West with the harmony of thy
music. Spread the wisdom of Sufism abroad, for to this end art thou
gifted by Allah, the most merciful and compassionate.'
My Tour Abroad in the West
'The lover remains solitary among people and mingles
with them as little as water with oil.'--Rumi.
Following my decision and the call of God, I left
India in 1910 to sojourn in the Western world, strong in the courage of
the most blissful command I had received from my murshid and in the
glory of the noble object he had awakened in my soul.
Naturally it was a great change in my existence to
leave India, the most spiritually awakened land, and start for the
West, and especially for America, that modern home of material
progress. It was the very opposite of the dream I had just experienced.
The great activity of the people and the rapidity of things in general,
the rush of machinery above, below, and all around; the transitoriness
of affairs; men running hither and thither for trains and cars with
newspapers and parcels in their hands--all this kept me under a
complete spell of silence and bewilderment.
It was as if I had gone to sleep at home and had
found myself in a bazaar on awakening. But being a Sufi I very soon
became accustomed to this change of life by attuning myself to my
surroundings, and I found that they were indeed true lovers of Dunia,
the material world about which Rumi has written in his Masnavi.
Every race and nation has its infancy, youth, and
age, as also its birth and its death. And just like every individual it
even undergoes the evolution one passes through during the different
stages of life. For from a philosophical point of view all the sons of
the world are like little children, and their most important affairs
are of no more importance than a child's top. As a new nation America
naturally appears childish owing to its youth, although its material
progress is proportionately as great as the spiritual progress of
India. But America is a land of promise; in time it will arise to be an
ideal child among the children of God and a leader of reform.
It was very hard for me to keep a balance between my
mission and my profession, which were so different from each other. On
the one hand I had to be a teacher, and on the other an artist, and
especially the interpreter of an art which was so little known abroad.
This could never be understood by a people accustomed only to look at
the external aspect of things. It was not as in India where Kabir, the
great poet, preached while he sat weaving at his loom; where Guru Nanuk
taught within his prison. For some of the greatest teachers the East
has produced were also masters of music, such as Narada, Tumbara,
Bharata Muni, Tansen, Tukaram, Surdas, Amir Khusrau, Mirabai, Avicenna,
and Farabi.
Also, being a stranger, without any influence or
good introductions, which a teacher never requires in the East, it was
a long time before I became acquainted with the right people. In due
time, by the mercy of God, my path was opened and I came into contact
with those interested in music.
At first I performed and lectured on music at
Columbia University, winning the warm commendation of several
professors and students. This was the beginning of my professional
career in the West, and I started on a tour comprising nearly all the
well-known cities of the United States, where I spoke at universities,
before intelligent and appreciative audiences, on philosophy and music.
This duality heightened their interest in my work, and as I grew
familiar with the American people I began to realize to my joy that,
despite their commercial trend and materialistic ambitions, God has not
deprived them of that treasure which is love.
Their hearts are even as ours, although their
artificial life makes it more difficult for them to achieve that peace
which we can so easily attain in the calm of the East. They also have a
strong desire for spiritual progress, for as far as man is concerned,
it matters not whether he belongs to the East or to the West; in time
he is inevitably attracted to that eternal Source of Love which can
never be eluded.
When I arrived in San Francisco I found much to
interest me there, and my desire for the revelation of truth had its
outlet. I have never approved of the idea of mission work, and
especially at this period of human evolution when a new awakening is
imminent all over the world. I escaped the appearance of being a
religious zealot or one who wishes to convert people, for I bore that
message of universal truth which would harmonize East and West by
spreading the idea of unity and which is Sufism.
I spoke at the universities of Berkeley and Los
Angeles in California, where my music and my discourses on philosophy,
as expressed in the realm of art, attracted much attention. Although my
professional tour did not permit me to do as much as I otherwise could
have done, yet it was the only means of fulfilling my mission, which
had no other support than that of God. This tour aided me greatly in
establishing the Sufi Order in America, with the following objects at
heart:
(I) To establish a human brotherhood with no
consideration of caste, creed, race, nation, or religion; for
differences only create a lack of harmony and are the source of all
miseries.
(2) To spread the wisdom of Sufism, which has been
until now a hidden treasure, though it is indeed the property of
mankind and has never belonged to any particular race and religion.
(3) To attain that perfection wherein mysticism is
no longer a mystery but redeems the unbeliever from ignorance and the
believer from falling a victim to hypocrisy.
(4) To harmonize the East and West in music, the
universal language, by an exchange of knowledge and a revival of unity.
(5) To promote Sufi literature, which is most
beautiful and instructive in all the aspects of knowledge.
Praise be to the name of God, that those who were
attracted by the message of truth were for the most part in earnest and
very devout. Indeed, their sympathy made me almost forget my yearning
for the East, and I felt at one with them. Some very wealthy mureeds
wished me to give up my profession, and proposed to help me materially
in order that my needs should be satisfied without trouble, and that I
could thus be enabled to devote all my time to the Sufi call.
I gratefully refused this proposal, for, being a
Sufi, I did not care about appearances, believing always that the self
was the one dependable staff of life; while music, being my very
religion, was much more to me than a mere profession, or even than my
mission, since I looked upon it as the only gateway to salvation.
My associates, among whom were my two brothers,
Maheboob Khan and Musharaff Khan, and my cousin Mohammed Ali Khan,
rendered their utmost service by devoting themselves to the
establishment of the Sufi Order which, in due course, was set on a firm
basis. As mysticism had hitherto been made a hidden and esoteric thing
by some teachers, who taught it only to those who belonged to their own
race, religion, nation, or class, it was my task to impress upon the
world that it belonged to them all; and that as I had acquired it from
man, I must impart it again to man, without questioning his right, his
caste, or his creed.
After my American journeying I came to Europe and
visited England, where I immediately sought for my own countrymen in
the hope of seeing familiar faces once again, as I had beheld so few
since leaving India. But to my great disappointment I discovered them
to be the very reverse of my expectations; some seemed to be avoiding
their fellow-countrymen purposely, and the others were set on keeping
to their own clique. This revealed a wrong influence of Western culture
upon their lives.
At last, by continual effort, I gathered my
spiritual fellows from among the Europeans around me, and these proved
to be more at one with my soul than my own people. I found much more
sympathy and response from the English than I had ever expected from
them when in India. Their gentle and courteous nature revealed a sharp
difference between the Old World and the New. But there was little
curiosity concerning India and her people, and I found it very
difficult at first to come into contact with minds open to philosophy.
It was on hearing the voice of the Suffragettes that
I felt a new religion of sex arising, which would bring freedom to
women in all phases of life. Woman seemed to me to be prepared for
science, art, religion, and philosophy, while her suffering in life
also brought her nearer to the wider fields of intellect. I saw a lack
of harmony between men and women, of that harmony upon which the true
happiness of nations depends. The secret of this sad state, which is
unknown to either sex, lies in the lack of thought cultivation and in
the desire for worldly gain at the sacrifice of all else, while both
sexes must meet on the same plane of evolution before the ideal phase
can possibly be reached.
I appeared several times in public, and eventually
before royalty, and thus prepared the ground for sowing the seed of
Sufism in England. A Sufi Publishing Society was established, a most
necessary organ for the propagation and maintenance of the Order,
rounded with the laudable object of publishing works on both ancient
and modern mysticism, philosophy, religion, art, science, literature,
and music.
My journey to Paris was more for music than for
philosophy. Through the kind efforts of such friends as Debussy, the
famous composer, I was able to carry out my mission through the medium
of my art with great success. As my long stay in the West as well as my
close friendship with several musical scholars had trained my ear to
Western music, I especially appreciated that of France, which is so
full of love and emotion. I spoke at the Musical Congress, the Musee
Guimet, and at the University. The sensitive and idealistic tendency of
the French helps to develop those qualities of the heart which are
attuned to devotion. Their Catholic training also influences them
towards the devotional aspect of worship.
My visit to Russia struck another chord in my
nature, for it recalled the East to me again. I found the people open
both to modern progress and ancient thought. I met the leading
musicians, poets, and literary men, who proved to be absorbed in their
work, appreciative, kind, and hospitable, all of which promises much
for their national advancement. Their voice cultivation and keen
interest in all aspects of art especially pleased me. This concern
shown by many prominent Russians made a lasting impression upon me. I
also found there that Eastern type of discipleship which is natural to
the nation where religion and self-sacrifice are still in existence,
although the bigotry of the Orthodox Church stands in the way of the
highest spiritual awakening.
Before I could bring my message of peace to the rest
of Europe this distressing war convulsed the world. (World War I)
East and West
All that I, as a Sufi, a universal being, have
learned from my experience in both East and West is that I can now
appreciate the merits and also understand the defects of both
impartially.
Although the East has progressed to an inconceivable
extent in certain aspects of life, this has never been fully
recognized. In other words it has not been sufficiently fruitful,
because its progress has been individualistic and not general. Also
self-satisfaction, linked with laziness and recklessness, retard it
from material advancement to a great degree. It is sad to see that
Eastern students usually adopt the most undesirable qualities of the
West, such as extravagance, excessive gaiety, and exclusiveness,
instead of its courage, power of organization, and its most wonderful
knowledge of administration.
In many cases Westernized Orientals grow indifferent
towards their own people, owing to the varied direction of thought
which retards their unity. The present unbalanced condition of the East
is such that the man with intellect is, as it were, unbalanced in body,
while the sane in body are unstable in mind. The spiritual person is
lost in the spirit, and the material person is absorbed in matter; thus
the one is an angel while the other is an animal. No doubt the
unbalanced state of the East has deprived it for the present of both
the world and God.
The East can learn a lesson of order from the West,
for the lack of this is at the root of its downfall. She can also learn
balance and moderation in most things, and cooperation among all
classes regardless of caste or creed. Although the East has taught the
lesson of brotherhood to the world, yet her children seem to forget to
practice it among themselves; the brother drags his brother down and
selfishness is on the increase, especially in India.
The East should also imitate the regularity of
Western methods of work and rest, as well as its commercial activity,
together with its love of research.
The independent spirit of the West is most
praiseworthy among women as well as men. Their love of travel, the
neatness and convenience of their homes, and the companionship of man
and wife all these are very praiseworthy, and especially at the
present time when two extremes, either a great adoration or the
complete subordination of woman, exist in the Orient.
'Man is placed in the prison of the earth, to prove
him bankrupt towards God.'--Rumi
On the other hand, the West should adopt the East's
adaptability to circumstances and its simplicity of living. At a time
when modern civilization is increasing the needs of artificial life to
such an extent, and the richer a man gets the more avaricious he
becomes, then the most worthy and needful lesson for the West is the
Eastern code of morality, which European travelers often overlook under
its mantle of simplicity.
Eastern morals extol tolerance, renunciation,
confidence, faith, and trust, together with innocence, contentment,
patience, modesty, sympathy, hospitality, and a love for humanity which
can even rise to the utmost heights of self-sacrifice. These merits,
although they are to be found all over the world, are especially
idealized and reach their highest culmination in the East. If the above
truths could be fully understood by those students who are busied with
the interchange of ideas and thought-forms in either part of the world,
the Great Harmony which is prophesied for us all upon the morrow would
assuredly come today!
'Love is the net of Truth.'--Abu Said.
The rapid evolution in material life seems to have
brought the West to such a pitch that its religion seems lost in its
bigotry and narrow-mindedness. At the same time, its progress being
one-sided, the number of unbelievers has increased. As well as a few
believers there exist many who are interested in mysticism but are only
actuated by ignoble curiosity while remaining absolutely regardless of
faith or belief, of God or apostle. These are constantly delving and
diving into mysticism and the secrets of phenomena, which they desire
to use in place of more materialistic media in order to accomplish
their worldly ends and aspirations.
I have also found some religious enthusiasts who
extol Christianity as a purely Western faith, forgetting that Christ
himself was from the East, and that the East has understood and adored
him much more than is generally known, although the Christian Church
may not be established everywhere and the East may worship in other
houses of the Lord.
Fain for salvation I would come to
Thee,
The guide to cross the forest-wilds of life;
Wilt thou not heed when Passion's robber-band
Would snatch from me Thy Treasure's
Trinity? --Jain
Hymn
There seems to be a growing yearning for esoteric
studies in Europe, represented by different so-called mystical and
spiritual societies and institutions for mental healing, but I found
most of these to be on a purely commercial basis. Still, I would not
blame them, seeing that the commercial trend of the age would surely
not allow even Christ to preach as he did formerly. Also, this new
awakening has produced one good result which must not be overlooked. It
has aroused the interest of the people in something higher than the
world of flesh, and a door is opened in the West to allow the Eastern
winds of divine wisdom to bear its spirit on towards an ideal end.
But although this wave of thought has created a
longing for the golden paths of mysticism, yet it has in a way
degenerated, owing to its abuse in two directions: the desire to attain
the requirements of daily life through mysticism, and the placing of
the higher aspirations on a lower level.
Among those who are interested in mysticism there
are some who have various objects of gain in view, and thereby, in the
place of the true goal of mysticism, they direct all their energies to
experimenting with phenomena. Some desire psychic powers, others wish
to reach the planets, some hanker after glorious reincarnations in
return for their virtuous acts. Some depend on spirits to guide them,
and some do not rise above their undeveloped ego. Others dabble in
mysticism out of inquisitiveness, some for a pastime, others as a
profession, and yet others relish the notoriety their association with
the unseen brings to them. I have met some who never knew what they
were seeking, and yet were inordinately enthusiastic.
With the exception of a few chosen ones of God, who
were inspired by the light and glory of truth, I found great difficulty
in turning the interest of the people from the objective to the
subjective world; in other words from illusion to stability, and from
egoism to self-negation. It was like steering a ship against the tide.
It is the same even in the East; otherwise every Oriental would be a
saint. Still, the environment and training of the East surely help them
in smoothing the path towards the ideal life.
Eastern Training
'Verily the believers are brethren.'--Qur'an.
In the East religion is sown in the heart of the
child from birth, no matter to what religion he may belong. The
invocation of the name of God becomes a daily custom, which he
consciously or unconsciously repeats in sorrow as well as in joy.
'Bismillah'-In the name of Allah, or 'Alhamdolillah'--Praise be to
Allah, or 'Allah ho-Akbar'--God is great, and 'Ya Allah'--O God; such
expressions as these are used at the beginning and the end, as well as
in the midst of every ordinary conversation. This attunes the believer
and even attracts the unbeliever to the thought of God, which in the
end leads the seeker to self-realization and the peace of God.
In good homes morality is taught to every child in
unity with religion; by checking all its egoistic leanings it teaches
the child to become humble, modest, and respectful.
There is a little story told of the grandson of the
Holy Prophet. The child, on addressing a slave by name, was corrected
by his grandfather who exclaimed, 'Nay, those are not good manners;
although he is a slave he is older than you, so you must call him
"uncle".'
If this courtesy were practiced in modern civilized
countries such as America, where a strong prejudice against color
exists, how much better it would be for the nation! Courtesy to
strangers is taught as a virtue in the East, while the selfishness of
modern civilization prevents strangers from entering Western countries
without fear. This is quite an inhuman tendency, and reminds one of
dogs who bark and drive away a stranger from their own habitation.
Overlooking the faults of others with politeness,
tolerance, forgiveness, and resignation is regarded as a moral virtue
in the East. Man's heart is visualized as the shrine of God, and even a
small injury in thought, word, and deed against it is considered as a
great sin against God, the Indwelling One. Gratitude is shown by the
loyalty of the Orient and by being true to the salt; the hospitality of
a day is remembered throughout all the years of life, while the
benefactor never forgets humility even in the midst of his good deeds.
There is an Eastern saying, 'Forget thy virtues and remember thy sins'.
'Chained with gold chains about the feet of
God.'--Tennyson.
Thus the heart, developed by religion and morality,
becomes first capable of choosing and then of retaining the object of
devotion without wavering for a moment. Yet in the absence of these
qualities it remains incapable of either choice or retention.
There have been innumerable devotees in the East,
Bhakta or Ashik, whose devotional powers are absolutely indescribable
and ineffable. To the ignorant the story of their lives may appear
exaggerated, but the joy of self-negation is greater than that of
either spiritual or material
joy.
Devotion sweetens the personality, and is the light
on the path of the disciple. Those who study mysticism and philosophy
while omitting self-sacrifice and resignation grow egoistic and
self-centered. Such persons are apt to call themselves either God or a
part of God, and thus make an excuse for committing any sins they like.
Regardless of sin or virtue they misuse and malign others, being
utterly fearless of the hereafter. Yet they forget that 'strait is the
gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life', as the Bible
says.
The fire of devotion purifies the heart of the
devotee and leads to spiritual freedom. Mysticism without devotion is
like uncooked food and can never be assimilated. 'I am the heart of my
devotees,' says Krishna in the Baghavat Gita. And Hafiz says, 'O joyous
day when I depart from this abode of desolation, seeking the repose of
my soul and setting out in search of my Beloved.'
Philosophy, which is the fourth stage of
development, has five aspects: physical, intellectual, mental, moral,
and spiritual. These cannot be learned by the mere perusal of books,
and by listening to the discussions of philosophers. For philosophy is
not a study which is taught in the universities alone; it contains
quite an opposite path to knowledge, and it can only be truly studied
under the guidance of a murshid. In him the mureed has perfect trust
and confidence, as complete discipline even to the sacrifice of free
will is required. At first this appears to be a loss of individuality,
while the ego rebels at being thus crushed and submerged beneath the
stronger laws of will and reason. But the battle against self gives a
mastery over self in the end, which in other words is a mastery over
the whole universe.
But it is well to remember that such utter trust
should never be reposed in a murshid until the self has gained entire
confidence in him, and every doubt has been subdued. When once this
confidence is given, there should be nothing on earth which could break
or cast it down for the whole gamut of eternity. There are some who
consider it most humiliating to be guided by another, but they are
greatly mistaken, for in the light of truth there is but One. The
intercourse between murshid and mureed is preferable to any other
fellowship in the world, when one considers that a friendship in God is
the only true friendship which endures for ever. 'Sprinkle with wine
thy prayer-rug if thy Pir-o-Murshid says so. The guide is not unmindful
of the customs and ways of the Path', says Hafiz.
A murshid is a gateway unto the unseen Master and a
portal unto God, the Unknown. But yet in the end neither God, Master,
nor Murshid appears in the most dazzling light of divine wisdom, which
alone is 'I Am'.
'Everything shall perish except the face of
Allah.'--Qur'an.
Mysticism is the last grade of knowledge, which can
only be rightfully achieved by passing through all these preceding
stages, and it is only then that it is a mystery no more. Once it is
known one realizes by one's past delusions how far and remote has been
the goal, and how long the journey unto its distant shores. One beholds
for the last time the mountains of virtue one was forced to scale in
order to seek its rose-crowned heights, and then they vanish away like
a dream in the morning.
'Everywhere Thou art, nearest of all Thou art, and
yet nowhere Thou art, O all-pervading self.'--Zahir
It is degrading the name of mysticism when people
claim to be Christian or Jewish mystics, for mysticism is pure
from distinctions and differences. My Pir-o-Murshid once gave me a
goblet of wine during a trance, and said, 'Be thou intoxicated and come
out of the name and shame! Be thou the disciple of love and give up the
distinctions of life! Because to a Sufi, "I am this or that" means
nothing.'
All mystical powers such as clairvoyance,
clairaudience, thought-reading and prognostication, psychometry,
telepathy, ecstasy, and various other spiritual manifestations from the
world beyond, are disclosed in one glorious state of vision.
The life of the mystic, both the inner and the
outer, is shown as a wondrous phenomenon within itself. He becomes
independent of all earthly sources of life and lives in the Being of
God, realizing His presence by the denial of his individual self; and
he thus merges into that highest bliss wherein he finds his salvation.